How?
Making me doubt everything I thought.
How can you make these plans, when we haven't been anything? We've tried to be something, and tried to be nothing, and we get stuck in limbo, in this in between place, wanting but never having because we just don't work.
But I'm not the only one involved here. Someone else's feelings are at stake. Granted, that has nothing to do with you, and you have no reason to care. That was my doing, and therefore my responsibility. But you, you were the one who always said you had too much respect to do that to someone. How can you do this again, then? Isn't it all the same?
You're the only one who can do this to me, get me tangled up and confused.
He's catching on, you know. To my indecision, my creeping indifference. The change is too obvious, and I feel guilty.
Are you only going to break me again?
Then I won't. Don't be confused by me because the reality is it was always there just packed away in old boxes waiting to brought out again. And although it always seems too late it never is. Other people. Are exactly that... but I believe you would be happy without me. So no pursuit I will leave it as a fleeting moment. And maybe on one fine day we'll see each other without obstruction.
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